This week feels like everything is the same, but somehow everything feels different.
Have you ever felt like that?
As I walked down a familiar path, a road I have walked many times before on my way to my old job, the road remains the same, but everything has changed,
and that change is me!
The way I dress, the way I think, the world is the same, yet my world is totally different.
Last year as many of you would know I bravely (or foolishly) stepped out of the world I knew and into a world of uncertainty, a world of drastic pay cuts, unsteady income, and a title I call self-employed.
Lately I hear a recurring echo as I wander the streets of my new world.
An echo that says ” you are living the dream, you have fallen on your feet, are you always on holidays?”
The answer to all of these whispers and questions are yes, the honesty behind is that for every amazing high has come several lows, every success has come after several tries and failed attempts.
Every day at the beach follows a couple of 12-13 hour days of trying to promote my business and create this perfect life for myself.
Every positive post I post on Facebook is a celebration of how happy I am and how proud of myself I am.
Every post is a choice, to publicly promote happiness, I choose not to whine or complain or talk about the low points on Facebook, when I feel down, stressed or frustrated I talk to my husband or my friends.
This is my choice, not to be false or misleading.
A choice to keep spreading positivity to myself and hopefully others.
A choice not to rub into other peoples faces of all the highlights of my life, but a choice to focus on the good rather than the bad.
When my glass is becoming half empty rather than half full, I allow myself to wallow for a few moments, then I force myself to do one proactive thing immediately after.
Whenever I have felt sad that my class numbers were low, I would have my moment of “poor me” then I would sit on my yoga mat and think about how far I have come, I would close my eyes and focus on all the great things I had already done.
Before long my class numbers were building, my class timetable was increasing and my money was starting to flow in more readily (still have further to go, but you get my point).
Opportunities are flowing towards me.
Could this be that I am attracting positive outcomes through my positive thinking and actions?
Last year was fricken tough, more ups and downs than I have ever experienced. More challenges than I have ever faced.
Everyone has battles going on in their lives, some bigger than others, everyone is fighting their own fight, searching for their own piece of happiness.
If I have learnt anything it is that my eyes can look at the same world as yours and have a completely different view.
You and I could watch a person on the street and we would instantly form different opinions about that person.
Not everything is as it seems.
The vivacious lady that irritates you, may be forcing herself to be that way to ignore the internal or external struggles she faces.
The loner at school that you call boring or a nerd, may be fighting their own battles at home and rather than looking for attention they sit quietly in the corner.
The gorgeous skinny girl you envy wishes that guys would like her for her personality and not just her looks and wishes girls would stop hating her and spend the time to get to know the real her.
I could go on for days, the point is people are who they are, they do what they do, and it is your choice to accept them for who they are or not. It is your choice to get to know someone or not. It is your choice to ask the real questions and not just take things at face value or facebook value.
I have made this mistake a million times over, I have been too quick to judge, to form opinions without getting a deeper understanding of the person or the situation, but I am making a decision to try not to do that any more.
Not everything is as it seems, but unless we are willing to delve deeper, to ask the questions, to spend the time understanding people or situations then we will never know the full story.
When we start to remember that not everything is as it seems, somehow the world seems the same, yet everything starts to feel different.