Sometimes I think too deeply, I put way too much thought into things that perhaps should be allowed to play out naturally.
So here I am down at my part time house by the beach where I have spent a lovely afternoon by myself and I am going to type without thinking and just let the words pour out of my heart.
I am going to type and I am not going to think – heck I might not even read over this- I might just hit send and see what my heart is thinking 🙂
Yesterday I had both a rewarding and frustrating day…. Trying to learn new choreography with a dog who always wants to play is never going to be easy.
Yet despite the dog sitting on my mat, jumping on my head and chewing my yoga mat after I yelled at him, I managed to learn a few tracks.
I felt proud, and later I felt exhausted.
I am a person who feels everything on a deep level, which can be both a blessing and a curse!
So again here I am at my house by the beach, cooking a healthy soup, drinking a wine, sitting on the couch by myself in a contented yet somewhat melancholy frame of mind.
I have spent today teaching and practising body balance, helping friends in need, trying to establish my business, trying to finish work for other people.
I am that person who is always firing on all cylinders, with a million things on the go at all times. Today I told someone to apply for a job that I want for myself, I didn’t want the competition yet I couldn’t do the wrong thing and not inform my friend.
Today I acted in good faith, and for once didn’t think too deeply and well the rest is up to fate.
At the beach I can find peacefulness amongst the chaos, I can breathe deeply when my heart is racing, I can walk quickly yet notice every small detail around me.
Sometimes I am just a human who makes mistakes, who falls and gets back up, who cries to cleanse her soul, who laughs to replenish, who tries to find the good in every bad situation.
I think too deeply but I try to remember that what we think we can become so I try to think good and beautiful thoughts every chance I get.