I have been on a journey, of self discovery and exploration.
I have been steadily following a path, leading towards my dreams.
Like any path it had it bumps, and twists and turns; yet somewhere along this path I hit a dead end and I didn’t even realize I had stopped.
For the last two weeks I have been getting headaches and pains in my tummy- I didn’t realize it at the time but this pain my was gut, screaming at me to re-evaluate, to turn around on my path and take a different route.
That’s the things about chasing your dreams; sometimes you don’t even know exactly what it is that you are chasing until you stop for a moment and let the dreams find you.
Yesterday I made a difficult phone call, knocking back a lot of work, I felt sick at the thought of letting this company down, yet I couldn’t ignore my gut feeling any longer.
With each step that I took towards this new role, I felt my own dreams distancing themselves further from my path.
How can I give 100% to someone else when I am not giving 100% to myself!
This week a friend said to me ” Lou, you need to do or say whatever you need to, to be happy within yourself” this really struck a chord with me.
I wasn’t happy, I felt like I had given up on me, I was doubting myself and that is unacceptable.
Since making this decision, I have started to feel lighter, to feel motivated and in control.
I am in control once more of my own destiny and what can be better than that.